Is Google Reader… gone are the days when I used to be scared of logging into the reader. Now that I have given up on FB and been religious with the blog its quite amazing how slowly the posts are coming up. Maybe I need to begin to look at increasing my reading appetite. I also asked wifey yesterday to take out all the books I have bought but not read… that I must finish it ! 
For Google Reader though I just have one thing too say :
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does it happen with you that the more you try to avoid outside food the more you end up having it ?
Sigh …
Yea I know you all think I can never honestly try… but I have been avoiding it, however silly friends decide to marry at 34, then they keep throwing parties left right and centre… actually no, not parties… it so happens that the groom while changing clothes hands out 20k to the honest me to take care of it… then the goonda’s in the group threaten me to not give it back but to spend it on parties for all of us… so after 2 parties I am still left with about 8k and that means a couple of more days…. 
No I cant stop going to the parties… no not for the food but for the fun… its too much to miss… the jokes, the non veg ones I mean, the inane laughter, the late night cake cuttings, also for a change now eventually almost all are married and so are accompanied with their better halves so you dont even have to bother about going home… all this is just too good to be missed… yes… that also means you are sleeping late and later… and your son’s school ensures you are waking at the right time.. 
Me thinks I am sleep deprived now since the last 1 month !
and as much as I used to hate routine… and used to think its domestication… I actually need to go back to the routine atleast for a few days !!!!! I said I need to go back not that I want to !!! 
Cant believe I said that actually !
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There is a strange lull in my life these days, apparently, I have realised that when you become conscious almost every piece you type seems mediocre, not that I have been writing The adventures of Tom Swayer or 20,000 Leagues under the sea or Harry Potter or a novel that inspired a superhit movie although I must thank God that I didn’t inspire a movie coz otherwise I would have been bitching as well, the way things are these days. Anyways that apart coming back to the lull and the not so great quality of literature (can I call it that ?) I have been typing away, I used to enjoy simply being what I was, a looney, a bundle of desires or whatever you want to call me… definitely not a Bhai !!!!
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Then I guess as with all things in life it had to end and mind you I churned out 300 odd posts whether entertaining or rubbish or simply mad before this apparent block has actually struck. More than the block what I find most mesmerizing and am most unable to come to terms with is I just don’t feel upto it & all of a sudden it feels like reading blogs and commenting on them is an obligatory task. For me blogging always was and will remain about interacting and that makes things even more complicated for me. Why this sudden change, yes I know change is the only constant, but geez…. I cant even reason sigh !
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This is the time when I guess people take a blog break or a hiatus and as much as I have tried I haven’t been able to do that either. Like Oscar Wilde said, I can resist anything but temptation, I guess when the great man wrote that line he knew that every now and then there will be nerds like me who have absolutely no will power. Who cannot decide something and stick to it !! I however used to take solace from the fact that atleast I had something in common with the great man.
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Another apt line for me by the way is, Once I make up my mind I am full of indecision. No I don’t just say that line again and again, I actually live it as a matter of fact. Surprised ?? Not me, not one bit and why play around, I have to be honest !! Who am I kidding ??? It is actually a fact !!
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At times I feel like screaming my lungs out, sometimes I feel I should have a punching bag in my house, I would like Sunny deol in Ghayal just scream as loud as I can and keep punching away, coz at times I feel like punching the window pane or the door, no not the door !! Thankfully I haven’t lost it so bad and still have some hold over my senses, either that or may be I am scared of my wife, may be she will declare me a madman and disown me and probably that is what is preventing me from carrying out the madness. The bizzarest part is I don’t even know on whom am I angry, actually I am not angry !!! WTF 
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Maybe its this phase of mine where I am to while away my time before I take my career by the scruff of its neck and launch it like Viru launches the ball over the thirdman boundary. Wonder where the metaphor’s are coming from ! Am I angry, am I constructing a post or am I actually trying to get a perspective of myself ??? Sigh I dont know actually…
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Yesterday when I was running in the park with my son and I just loved the whole exercise, it seemed so very liberating, letting out all the unspent energy, conserved carefully playing Farmville, twittering, blogging…. I just wanted to keep running don’t know to where, we were in any case running in circles, unfortunately I eventually had to stop as my lungs and my body denied my mind. They both yelled at the top of their voice that I did rather stop or they might give up and and I had to give in….
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How I wish life were a DVD and I just hope I had a remote control, I want to really fast forward life…. really badly…
