As a kid I remember loving the movie Sholay… I even had a cassette of the movie and playing its dialogues was awesome then… ! I even played Gabbar Singh as a kid in fancy dress and won…. I was really chubby and wearing that green miltary outfit with the belt thrown over my shoulder and eating Glucon -D biscuits… If I remember correctly Gabbar Singh used to advertise those biscuits… !!!!
I still maintain from my past post long back on villains that Gabbar is one of the most loved villains… how many villains have you seen who endorse products ?? huh ?? I really cannot think of many… !!! Not even Mogambo… anyways… coming back to the main reason I started writing this post was, have you ever had an idol as a kid… someone you really looked upto ??
As a growing up kid, Vijay, Jay, Ravi… he had a lot of names… yes… Amitabh was a real icon… My favourite… He would be the thin hero who would fight off icons like Zubisco off just like that… he would fling himself on 5 people and throw them off their feet… he was the hero who would take an ambulance before he would go to bash the bad guys… !!! Amitabh in Deewar was the one who wouldnt not enter the temple and sit on the verandah… and yes… I have done it too… coz my Vijay was a nastik… I too used to take my mom to a derasar… but not enter it… somewhere down the line it got ingrained in me that being a Nastik was cool… !!!!! 😐 whatever that tells you about me… Yes… he was a big big big influence on me…
“Agar Kisine hillne ki koshish ki to bhoooooon ke rakh dooonga… “ those were like immortal lines… till date when I see the scene when Amitabh gets out of jail and goes to meet Ajit in Zanjeer I get goose flesh, it is one of the most loved scene… the Angry Young Man who actually grinds his jaws and keeps everything in control and tells Ajit, “Main bahar aa gaya hoon teja..” or when he says, “Jao pehle us aadmi ka sign leke aao jisne mere haath pe yeh likh diya ke mera baap chor hai !”
oh I wept with him, I got angry with him and I laughed with him when he would say, “kacha papad, pucca papad”
Amitabh was a huge influence on my growing up… he did do some terrible movies… but for me all and sundry that had the name Amitabh was always likable… !!! I wouldnt even hear anything against my HERO !!!!
I was like a Bhagat… !!! Read everything that came in news papers about him… and really get cross with journalists who would carry stories of him and Rekha or Parveen Babi… how could My Amitabh have an affair outside marriage I used to think… !!!! How gullible I was… 😐
I almost can speak all dialogues of Agneepath, Zanjeer, Deewar, Sholay, Chupke Chupke and a few more… !!!!
Eventually with my growing up came the age of satellite television, internet, blogs, twitter… and access to information more and more… you could read your hero’s thoughts… you could actually send him messages !!!!!!!!!! 😛 😛 I still have a desire to one day sit with him and interact for a few minutes… that would leave me most most most satisfied… !
But as I read more about him, his views and his personal life… the more disappointed I got… he was after all just another human being… and the fan in me hated it… how could he be ordinary like a human being, he was a SUPER HERO… I infact have his comics, I dont know if you know but there was a comic in which there was he was a Super Hero and he could communicate to animals… I still have a copy of one of those… I am so so sad I dont have more…
However, unlike the superhero I thought he was, he has his own flaws, some times when he blogs I really cant believe him, he is not at all convincing, he a bit like Shahrukh and Hritik on twitter and blogs talk just like Swami’s !!! A lil too much gyaan seriously… I mean do you use such language in real life ???? I seriously doubt it…
Too some extent I think getting to know too much about them and having so much access to information does ensure one thing… you wont be silly, crazy fans like me anymore…. and I seriously think that the super stardom status that people like Amitabh, Maradona, Micheal Jackson, Kishore Kumar, Elvis Presley etc enjoyed and commanded will never happen again…
Maybe its getting to know them so close and so much about them sort of makes them human… they dont have the elusiveness of the years gone by…
Dont you think so ???
Have you been disappointed by an idol ??? Some one you always looked upto growing up and suddenly you find you were really silly following someone like that ??? I no longer like Amitabh in his real avatar(read life) or his views… but still till day for me he is the greatest movie star and no matter how horrible his movie is… I watch it… somewhere the kid in me is still AWED by him… !! 🙂
Another such huge disappointement was Mohammed Azharruddin…. I used to walk like him, slightly limping, always used to have the collars up on the cricket field, hoped to some day flick some Aussie and West Indian bowlers like Azhar did to midwicket… Win matches for India and what not… Alas….
P.s. havent re-read so have to edit… will do it later… want to post and reach office… will edit from there.. !